i know that all these faux health concern people running about the internet passing judgement on my body really don’t give a shit about my health. they dont really care that i have a family history of diabetes. they don’t even care about the reproductive disorders i have. the hormonal disorders. the insulin imbalance. they don’t even care about diabetes altogether. they read an article once about the diabetes/obesity epidemic and now have some handy words to attach to their fauxcern about my health.
if they cared about my health, they would find some way to make healthcare affordable so that i could see a doctor about mitigating the circumstances of my health conditions and to get the medicine i most likely need but can’t afford.
if they cared about my health, they would make sure that the type of foods i need to eat were available and affordable always and that i had both time and resources to make the meals i need to meet the requirements of the diet i should be on.
if they cared about my health, they would take their friends to task for ever, EVER ONCE yelling at or harassing me for being outside in the world and present while fat for walking to the bus or to school or anywhere else so that i do not feel SCARED to go out and enjoy the outdoors because of what someone will say to me.
if they cared about my health, they would shut the fuck up about what i eat or don’t eat because after the sixth or seventh time of trying to tell people that my issue is not that i eat too much but that i don’t EAT AT ALL and therefore my body clings to every molecule it possibly can because it’s scared i’m going to punish it again, i get nauseated and sick and depressed at trying to convince people that fat people can and do suffer from eating disorders as well (and when we do, it’s called a change for the better).
if they cared about my health, they would realize that not all diabetics are fatties who just can’t put down the cookies (their thoughts, not mine), that thin people can suffer from insulin related disorders, that my weight gain was the RESULT of a hormonal/insulin imbalance, not the CAUSE of it and that people’s health concerns often do NOT FIT THEIR STEREOTYPICAL BULLSHIT.
even if it did, it is none of your business, EVER, what someone’s medical history/record is. EVER. this is not something we are required to give up to you in exchange for being a ‘good fatty’ and therefore not being harassed.
if they cared about my health, THEY WOULD STOP INVOKING SERIOUS HEALTH PROBLEMS AS SOME KIND OF PUNISHMENT FOR BEING FAT. YOU WOULD FUCKING NEVER TELL A SINGLE FAT PERSON THAT THEY ARE GOING TO GET DIABETES, YOU JERK, BECAUSE WHAT KIND OF PERSON WISHES POTENTIAL BODILY HARM ON ANOTHER SIMPLY BECAUSE YOU DON’T LIKE THE AMOUNT OF FLESH THEY HAVE ON THEIR BODY?
if they cared about my health, they would realize that i don’t ever have to divulge any of this if i don’t want to because my body and its health is none of their business. nobody’s body and what it goes through belongs in the rhetoric of another person especially when that person spouting crap is trying to shame or further harm a fat person. i don’t owe you shit, not medical records or shame or ‘oh you’re so right, how could i have been so unaware about the things that my body faces? oh God i have seen the light.’
my disorders and health concerns are not your anti-fat talking tool and i refuse to let the physical problems I PERSONALLY FACE (not anyone else but me) become a way to shame and harm other people. just get to the grist of it and tell me to my face that you find my body reprehensible because of what you were taught, rather than try to play concern charade to my face. you care not about my physical health, nor my mental health, and i am tired of pretending otherwise.